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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
♥ ♥ ♥
HAYA 'HAYASHI / KAREN POH
08.12.1994
Saggitarius
SHE HATEX ANYONE BREAKS HER HEART
LOVES -- Play Any Musical Instrument
Listen Music
Stay Alone
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
{/profile --
ramblings of a teenage girl
HAYA 'HAYASHI / KAREN POH
08.12.1994
Saggitarius
SHE HATEX ANYONE BREAKS HER HEART
LOVES -- Play Any Musical Instrument
Listen Music
Stay Alone
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
她總喜歡做幕後的看客
她不敢要太多的愛
她追求那種君子之交淡如水的境界
她有時也很虛偽
她總是固執地認為自己有超乎尋常的承受力
別以為她很灑脫
她不是不想平靜
千萬別讓她失望
她可以在前半分鐘
她心裡的
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
{/ --
Thursday, 22 April 2010 ( 19:50 )
This Is Me❤形容了我
她可能永遠也不會知道
自己想要的是什麼
但是她一直都很清楚
她不想要的是什麼
她總喜歡做幕後的看客
冷冷地
靜靜地看著一切
在她眼裡
一切都在她的意料之中
她並不覺得有什麼是新奇的
如果她表現得新奇
那是因為她覺得應該這樣做
她像一個看戲的人
永遠置身事外
你不要責怪她冷漠
這是她保護自己的唯一方式
她像一隻刺猬
隨時豎起自己身上的刺
但她的刺不會傷人
她只是用來武裝自己
她不敢要太多的愛
她怕享受完愛之後
剩下的只是加倍的痛
所以當別人
對她過度寵愛時
她不但不會欣喜
反而會驚懼地逃走
她不知道怎樣
回報別人對她的愛
如果你得到她的喜愛
那是因為她已經知道如何面對
如何回報了
她追求那種君子之交淡如水的境界
她懂得愛人
但她已经不習慣愛人
她知道愛往往伴隨著恨
而恨是太沉重的傷痛
也是太容易
讓人疲倦的感情
她不想痛
也就 懶得去恨
於是
為了防範恨與痛的到來
她只好選擇不愛
但最后都没有做到
即使愛
也是淡淡的
冷冷的
別怪她
她是真的不知道如何專注
她有時也很虛偽
不要指責她
她之所以選擇虛偽
那是你勉強她做她不願做
但又拒絕不了的事
她不習慣承諾
也不懂得拒絕
她最擅長的是難為自己
她不想你難過
只好令自己難過
她總是固執地認為自己有超乎尋常的承受力
她將自己想得太堅強
而把別人想得太脆弱
她老是擔心自己的行為
會讓別人受到傷害
她不知道
受傷的其實是自己
只是她不知道如何表現出來
她迷糊得像別人所認為的那樣
將自己當成一個百毒不侵的人
別以為她很灑脫
很多時候
她其實是放不下的-
她比任何人都要敏感
都要細膩
但她不會讓你知道
她明白
即使你知道了
也是無濟於事
她的心是把握不住的風
她渴望像風一樣單純而自由
请耐心看完它吧...
她不是不想平靜
她只是找不到平靜的理由
她一生都無法明確自己
在人世要扮演的角色
她只有不停地尋求
尋求自己最終的目的
如果她找到了
她會毫不猶豫 地停下來
從此放棄心靈的漂泊
很遺憾
她永遠也不會滿足
她的追求永不停止
她的心再累
無法逼迫自己放棄夢想
夢想是她唯一的支撐點
千萬別讓她失望
因為她學不會原諒
她非常渴求完美
雖然她知道世間
沒有絕對的完美
但她有絕對追求完美的執著
你若令她失望
她會不可挽回地離開
即使她的心在滴血
即使痛楚重得要壓垮她的生命
她也絕不回頭
那個時候
你在她臉上所看到的
是讓人寒心的決絕
即使她還在你的身邊
她的心也早就離你十 萬八千里
你看不到她的恨
但是你會感受到比恨
還讓人痛苦的冷淡
她的離開是心靈的離開
她可以在前半分鐘
對你好得讓你受寵若驚
也可以在後半鐘
冷漠得讓你不可接受
不要問她為什麼這樣善變
她也不知道
當你看到她在瘋狂地快樂或悲傷時
千萬不要迷惑
不管她看起來是多麼的瘋狂
她內心其實是冷靜的
她比你們任何一個旁觀者
更知道如何處理快樂與悲傷
她只是習慣——
也可以說是喜歡
將一切都變得 瘋狂
因為她覺得這是義務
也是權利
她是製造氣氛的能手
她的一句俏皮話
會讓一切輕快起來
但她的一聲嘆息
又會將一切都弄得很沉重
她總是不由自主地
交錯操縱著快樂與憂鬱
她並不如你們看到的那麼快樂
同樣
也不如你們看到的那麼憂傷
只是
她憂鬱时
喜歡帶上快樂的面具
而當她快樂時
憂鬱又不肯輕易放過她
在她的世界裡
盛著的不是快樂的源泉
而是她不願在人前滴下的淚水
你看到的她
笑起來像一個孩子
你有時會認為她天真得像是
童話裡走出來的天使
但是
你若有心
你會看到她沉靜時
臉上揮之不去的憂傷
還有她的眼底
竟那麼凝重地積壓著
一種看破紅塵的味道
她只有在午夜無人的時候
才會完全地釋放自己
她不會在眾目
睽睽之下表露她的無助
她的徬徨
她的滄桑
她心裡的
是永遠流不盡的淚
你所看到的堅強
只是她在竭力掩飾的脆弱
If we; Should be getting under
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
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Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
now playing
empty, click five
She May Never Know
What She Want
But She Has Been Very Clear
What She Did Not Want
She Likes To Do Behind The Scenes Of The Spectators
Coldly
Quietly Watching Everything
In Her Eyes
Everything Expected Of Her
She Did Not Feel That Have Any Strange
If She Acted Strange
That Is Because She Felt Should Be Done
She Is Like A Theater Person
Always Stay Out Of
Please Do Not Blame Her Indifference
This Is The Only Way To Protect Herself
She Looks Like A Hedgehog
Always Put Up Her ‘Quills’
However, The Thorns Will Not Hurt Her Friends
She Just Used To Arm Herselves
She Was Afraid To Love Too Much
She Was Afraid After Enjoying The Happiness Of Love
The Rest Is Just Extra Pain
So When Someone
Had Over-Loving Her, Take Care Of Her
She Will Not Be Happy
Perhapds She Will Escape From It
Because She Does Not Know
How To Return Her Love To Others
If You Get Her Interest & Fall In Love
That Is Because She Already Knew How To Face It
How To Return Her Love
She was always stubbornly believe that she has extraordinary endurance
She always want to be strong
While the others want to be too fragile
She always worried that her behavior
Will make others hurt
But She did not know
She Always Hurt Her own
But she does not know how to show up
Do not think that she was free and easy
Often
She actually does not fit -
She is sensitive than anyone
When She is not fine
She will not let you know
She understood
Even if you know
Is useless
Her heart is to grasp the wind
She longed for a simple, free like the wind
She dreams for peace
But She just could not find the reason for calm
She don't know what is her role
To play in this world
She just kept looking
Seek for her ultimate goal
If she found
She would not hesitate to stop
Give up the mind from wandering
Unfortunately
She will never meet
Never stop pursuing her
No matter how tired her heart
Can not be forced to give up the dream
The only strong point is her dream
Do not let her down
Since she will not forgive
She is in great for perfect
Although she knows
There is no absolute perfect in this world
But she has the absolute perfection of perseverance
If you make her disappointment
She will leave irreversible
Even if her heart bleeding
Even if the pain was to be re-crushed her life
She also never go back
That time
You see her face
Is a step in the right people to pull off
Even if she is still by your side
Her heart had leave apart from you
You can not see her hate
But you will feel "something" more than hate
And also painful cold
She was not so happy as you can see
Same
If you do not see so sad
Only
When her depression
Like to put on a happy mask
When she was happy when
They would not easily let go of her depression
In her world
Candy in the source is not happy
But she did not want the tears that fell in front of others
You see her
Laugh like a child
You sometimes think she is innocent like
Angel walked out of a fairy tale
Her heart
Endless tears forever flow
You see her strong
Only does she try to cover up the weak
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
{/miscellaneous --
My Virtual Barang
now playing
empty, click five
She May Never Know
What She Want
But She Has Been Very Clear
What She Did Not Want
She Likes To Do Behind The Scenes Of The Spectators
Coldly
Quietly Watching Everything
In Her Eyes
Everything Expected Of Her
She Did Not Feel That Have Any Strange
If She Acted Strange
That Is Because She Felt Should Be Done
She Is Like A Theater Person
Always Stay Out Of
Please Do Not Blame Her Indifference
This Is The Only Way To Protect Herself
She Looks Like A Hedgehog
Always Put Up Her ‘Quills’
However, The Thorns Will Not Hurt Her Friends
She Just Used To Arm Herselves
She Was Afraid To Love Too Much
She Was Afraid After Enjoying The Happiness Of Love
The Rest Is Just Extra Pain
So When Someone
Had Over-Loving Her, Take Care Of Her
She Will Not Be Happy
Perhapds She Will Escape From It
Because She Does Not Know
How To Return Her Love To Others
If You Get Her Interest & Fall In Love
That Is Because She Already Knew How To Face It
How To Return Her Love
She was always stubbornly believe that she has extraordinary endurance
She always want to be strong
While the others want to be too fragile
She always worried that her behavior
Will make others hurt
But She did not know
She Always Hurt Her own
But she does not know how to show up
Do not think that she was free and easy
Often
She actually does not fit -
She is sensitive than anyone
When She is not fine
She will not let you know
She understood
Even if you know
Is useless
Her heart is to grasp the wind
She longed for a simple, free like the wind
She dreams for peace
But She just could not find the reason for calm
She don't know what is her role
To play in this world
She just kept looking
Seek for her ultimate goal
If she found
She would not hesitate to stop
Give up the mind from wandering
Unfortunately
She will never meet
Never stop pursuing her
No matter how tired her heart
Can not be forced to give up the dream
The only strong point is her dream
Do not let her down
Since she will not forgive
She is in great for perfect
Although she knows
There is no absolute perfect in this world
But she has the absolute perfection of perseverance
If you make her disappointment
She will leave irreversible
Even if her heart bleeding
Even if the pain was to be re-crushed her life
She also never go back
That time
You see her face
Is a step in the right people to pull off
Even if she is still by your side
Her heart had leave apart from you
You can not see her hate
But you will feel "something" more than hate
And also painful cold
She was not so happy as you can see
Same
If you do not see so sad
Only
When her depression
Like to put on a happy mask
When she was happy when
They would not easily let go of her depression
In her world
Candy in the source is not happy
But she did not want the tears that fell in front of others
You see her
Laugh like a child
You sometimes think she is innocent like
Angel walked out of a fairy tale
Her heart
Endless tears forever flow
You see her strong
Only does she try to cover up the weak