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m
P
t
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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
♥ ♥ ♥
HAYA 'HAYASHI / KAREN POH
08.12.1994
Saggitarius
SHE HATEX ANYONE BREAKS HER HEART
LOVES -- Play Any Musical Instrument
Listen Music
Stay Alone
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
{/profile --
ramblings of a teenage girl
HAYA 'HAYASHI / KAREN POH
08.12.1994
Saggitarius
SHE HATEX ANYONE BREAKS HER HEART
LOVES -- Play Any Musical Instrument
Listen Music
Stay Alone
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
{/ --
Thursday, 31 December 2009 ( 18:27 )
❤亲人❤
下一站 幸福
别打开礼物的缎带
最初充满期待最后都腐败
别打开午夜的电台
别让情歌反覆再愚弄
而爱并没有教给我生存
只教我交易虚荣给天真
可是爱让我们变成陌生人
却变不了更高尚的灵魂
*不要吻我只要抱着我
不要爱我做我的亲人
把手借我一天一分钟*
做我最亲密的亲人
不是谁的情人谁的某某某
就算我全身湿透透
我也不再被谁牵着鼻子走
如果我还握住拳头
可能我怕我的梦飞走
而爱并不如你想的万能
不能让我们不再战争
可是爱连慈悲也没多慈悲
谁爱越深越容易被牺牲
*让我还敢做我的梦
做我梦中伟大的微笑的英雄
{/ --
Saturday, 26 December 2009 ( 18:51 )
平安夜
❤开心❤难过
今天
第一次和两位表姐
Mary & Yilin
第一次和朋友
ChoonHow & Keegan & KaSen
第一次和航
在redbox倒数
还一起庆祝圣诞节
真的很开心
倒数时
很热闹哦
有抽奖活动
我们抽到一个五十块的礼卷哦
哈哈
开心
不开心的也有
因为大家都有喝酒
有些多 有些少
只有keegan没有喝
你很“乖”
哈哈
就是航竟然大骂我
还说不要我了
害我哭了好久好久
算了
至少我巴了你两巴掌
你还不清醒
我也服了
过去了
都过了
不想追究
只想改变自己
好一点
{/ --
Thursday, 24 December 2009 ( 21:40 )
❤❤
我不明白
為甚麼做人要做到這樣
很像雙面人這樣
煩!
我不明白
為甚麼做人要做到這樣
很像雙面人這樣
煩!
{/ --
Sunday, 20 December 2009 ( 21:58 )
Broken❤Heart
放弃。。真的是个好方法吗。。
和我在一起到现在
不会觉得辛苦吗。。
我不想再像那次一样
找上父母
你会变得落魄
我不要再有第二位被我妈玩死
我不愿用你的生命来当赌注
我输不起
我败给了命运。。
爱你。。不需要得到
就算你快乐
我也满足
别说没有我
你就没有快乐
那..是个借口
时间会证明一切的
就像我忘记鸿升一样
你会好好的..
TJY 也许..
是个很好的选择
毕竟..是我插入你们的
她比我还早喜欢你
你也帮了她不少忙
而我们只是突然而间
在那一晚上
就在一起了
没有理由的
没有告白和追求
自然的
就在一起
现在..
她依然喜欢你..
曾经告诉我
她为了你
割脉进医院
这种女孩
还有几个
而我已经没有勇气为男生割了..
可以告诉我..
你的想法吗..
可以拯救我
在挣扎之中吗..
我好辛苦
放弃。。真的是个好方法吗。。
和我在一起到现在
不会觉得辛苦吗。。
我不想再像那次一样
找上父母
你会变得落魄
我不要再有第二位被我妈玩死
我不愿用你的生命来当赌注
我输不起
我败给了命运。。
爱你。。不需要得到
就算你快乐
我也满足
别说没有我
你就没有快乐
那..是个借口
时间会证明一切的
就像我忘记鸿升一样
你会好好的..
TJY 也许..
是个很好的选择
毕竟..是我插入你们的
她比我还早喜欢你
你也帮了她不少忙
而我们只是突然而间
在那一晚上
就在一起了
没有理由的
没有告白和追求
自然的
就在一起
现在..
她依然喜欢你..
曾经告诉我
她为了你
割脉进医院
这种女孩
还有几个
而我已经没有勇气为男生割了..
可以告诉我..
你的想法吗..
可以拯救我
在挣扎之中吗..
我好辛苦
{/ --
Tuesday, 15 December 2009 ( 21:39 )
我快疯了。。
真的快疯了。。
根本没人懂我的感觉。。
为什么我要给自己那么多压力。。
我无法一次过写完我的偏见
"Can u curse my all family die except me??
my lanjiao family fucking pua cibai retarded,
idiot, stupid lanjiao, sohai kaokpei silaobu+sibeh annoy"
"I think i live in this family seems like spending my life
to do all fucking idiot jobs for my family,
I decide liao, after i go study university, i won't ever come back to this hell"
"i'm lazy to say, i just fell them semakin irritating,
i dun have problem,
they have countless problems,
i think u know wad is run fire instead of need me to explain"
"that is their problem, i dun care
they just thought my thinking same type with them n keep talk"
妈妈。。爸爸。。
这就是你的好儿子。。
只有对没有错的好儿子。。
诅咒我们死,骂粗话
你们的好儿子。。
你们根本没有看过
他是多么地不好。。
只会批评人。。
在别人面前装好人
我从小到大从来都没有叫过他一声哥!
一个从小到大
没有温暖的家庭
{/ --
( 19:57 )
自私的父母
我恨你们这对父母
什么夫妻
几年都没有说到几句话
分居那么多年了
为何不要离婚
你们有想过儿女的感受吗。。
我不是二十岁的成年人
我只是个读着六岁幼稚园的小女生
每个星期都得来回新山笨珍
走的是同样的路
只是随着年代而改变得路程
多了几个建筑物
多了几条大道
多了几条豪华的饭店
减短了到达的时间
可是。。
你们有想过。。
这不是一两天的事吗
就这样十年了。。
十年里
我花了多少时间
在车上看着那无聊的风景
你以为。。
没有人问过我
“妈妈在哪里阿”
“爸爸在哪里阿”
你们知道当我听了
是怎么回答的吗
“噢。。在忙做工”
可是事实是这样吗。。??
根本就不是。。
现在。。只有大哥了解我的感受
我知道。。
自己没有比大哥惨
我也了解大哥以前是有多么的落魄。。
谁。。
都不能体会到我们兄妹俩的感受。。
就算你们再了解我。。
那又能怎么样呢。。??
在我眼里
一个不是事实的生活中
我的妈妈是kakak rani
我的爸爸是舅舅和舅母,阿姨
你们当过父母什么责任。。
我想离开这里
柔佛。。
离开这里。。
去吉隆玻读书
做个哑巴的人。。
不再对任何人善良与爱心
因为根本对我没有用。。
就算我的性格再好
对别人而言
我是个有礼貌的小孩
可是对你们而言
是这样吗??
宁愿说自己的女儿又多不好
对吗。。
kevin骂粗话
做错事
都没有人骂他
我从来都没有对你们骂过粗话
更为了得到多点爱护而去学任何学艺
可是得到的是什么。。?
好的。。你们从来都没称赞过我
不好的。。你们就用打用骂。。
即使我做得再好
你们有知道过吗??
你们懂那种女儿知道你们外面
都有男人和女人却不能说出来的痛苦吗???!!
那干嘛不离婚???!!
难道你们认为
不离婚就代表不给我们伤害吗
就算你们不离婚
我还不是一样会被问爸爸妈妈在哪里!!
那跟离婚有什么两样??!!
可以说我钻牛角尖。。
但是以我的角度来看。。
你们能感觉到我的感受吗。。
你们对我来说
只是一对自私的父母!!!!
{/ --
Monday, 14 December 2009 ( 14:09 )
我不会忘记
你今天打了我一巴掌
你今天打了我一巴掌
还对我那么粗暴
航
对不起
让你哭了
我真的没有要离开你
真的。。
请你相信我
就算我妈真的反对
真的要我走
请你相信我
我还是会想办法和你联络
航
别哭了
不要为我哭泣了
真的不值得你哭的
就算我不在你身边
我也希望你能知道
我会想你
即使不是每分每秒
至少我一定会想起你
要好好照顾自己
知道吗。。
我不要分手
I Dun Want Break Up
..
{/ --
Friday, 11 December 2009 ( 14:33 )
My Birthday
Just Back Fr Genting Highlands
So Relax Now
And Happy..
Kenny Tan, Liao Choon How, Keegan Leow and Lee Yong han
Thks For YOUR All Suprise And Birthday Songs
I Feel Touch And Happy Althought It Was Late
Ong Siew Lan, Ong Siew Hong, Rachel Tay, Ong Chun Fatt
Thks For YOUR All Present
Watch, Cake, Steamboat, Clothes
Thks AHYI, KIUKIU, JIUMU
Yilin Ong, Yings Toh, Mary Liew, Ivan Ong
Thks For YOUR All Birthday Wishing
Thks, My Cousins~~
Xiaocool, Xiaoyuan, Benjamin, Wei Xuan, Keh Xin, Jie Ting, Liew Hui, Shu Hui, Christin, Jia Hong, Xiao beng, Wong Wee Chew, Yonghooi, Pang Ming Wei, Chin Pei Jia, Goh Shin Hwa, Emily, Harith, Huiz Lee, Kah Yong, Izat, Kai Sing, Vivian, Wei Ting, Joanne, Darren, Jia Xian and Li Xing
Thks For YOUR All Birthday Wishing
Even We Are Not Very Close
Even We Are Not Knowing To Each Other
I'm Still The Simple Words To Say
THANKS YOU
Yonghan, Thks For U..
Company Me To Go Gent.H
It Was My First Time
BF Company Me, Celebrate My Birthday At Somewhere
That Day, I Was Angry And Dissapointed
Cause Of Ur Lying And Scolding Me
I Smoke And Standing Ourside First Worlds, Indoor Theme Park
Feelings Cold And I Cry
It Was 14 Degrees At There
Cold Like Ice
I Cry And Cry
U Come And Find Me
Stand By My Side
Cover Me With The Jacket
And U..
Wearing A T-Shirt And A Short Pants
Struggle At There
I Was Still Dissapointed
And I Wanna To Give Up U At That Day
My Cousin Sister
Were Sawing Ur Attitude To Me
U Said Sorry To Me Repeatly
And Wanna Me To Forgive
I Didn't Want And Push U Away
But..Lastly U Do Smthg That Lets Me Touch..
Even U Are So Cold, Struggle Heavily At There
U Still Hanging Jacket To Me And Hug Me
I Was Thinking That Why Should U Pass The Jacket To Me
U Are So Cold..Why Should U Still Thinking Of Me
Even I Push Away, U Also Didn't Go
Even I Walk Away, U Keep Stay At My Back
Even I Tell U Go Inside To The Theme PaRK
U Also Didn't Do It..
That Day, I Was Realise That
U Love Me Alot
That Day, I Can Feel U Are Really Sad And Wants My Forgive
Han, I Was Touch That Day
Thks For U..
And YoUR Birthday Surprise..
Just Back Fr Genting Highlands
So Relax Now
And Happy..
Kenny Tan, Liao Choon How, Keegan Leow and Lee Yong han
Thks For YOUR All Suprise And Birthday Songs
I Feel Touch And Happy Althought It Was Late
Ong Siew Lan, Ong Siew Hong, Rachel Tay, Ong Chun Fatt
Thks For YOUR All Present
Watch, Cake, Steamboat, Clothes
Thks AHYI, KIUKIU, JIUMU
Yilin Ong, Yings Toh, Mary Liew, Ivan Ong
Thks For YOUR All Birthday Wishing
Thks, My Cousins~~
Xiaocool, Xiaoyuan, Benjamin, Wei Xuan, Keh Xin, Jie Ting, Liew Hui, Shu Hui, Christin, Jia Hong, Xiao beng, Wong Wee Chew, Yonghooi, Pang Ming Wei, Chin Pei Jia, Goh Shin Hwa, Emily, Harith, Huiz Lee, Kah Yong, Izat, Kai Sing, Vivian, Wei Ting, Joanne, Darren, Jia Xian and Li Xing
Thks For YOUR All Birthday Wishing
Even We Are Not Very Close
Even We Are Not Knowing To Each Other
I'm Still The Simple Words To Say
THANKS YOU
Yonghan, Thks For U..
Company Me To Go Gent.H
It Was My First Time
BF Company Me, Celebrate My Birthday At Somewhere
That Day, I Was Angry And Dissapointed
Cause Of Ur Lying And Scolding Me
I Smoke And Standing Ourside First Worlds, Indoor Theme Park
Feelings Cold And I Cry
It Was 14 Degrees At There
Cold Like Ice
I Cry And Cry
U Come And Find Me
Stand By My Side
Cover Me With The Jacket
And U..
Wearing A T-Shirt And A Short Pants
Struggle At There
I Was Still Dissapointed
And I Wanna To Give Up U At That Day
My Cousin Sister
Were Sawing Ur Attitude To Me
U Said Sorry To Me Repeatly
And Wanna Me To Forgive
I Didn't Want And Push U Away
But..Lastly U Do Smthg That Lets Me Touch..
Even U Are So Cold, Struggle Heavily At There
U Still Hanging Jacket To Me And Hug Me
I Was Thinking That Why Should U Pass The Jacket To Me
U Are So Cold..Why Should U Still Thinking Of Me
Even I Push Away, U Also Didn't Go
Even I Walk Away, U Keep Stay At My Back
Even I Tell U Go Inside To The Theme PaRK
U Also Didn't Do It..
That Day, I Was Realise That
U Love Me Alot
That Day, I Can Feel U Are Really Sad And Wants My Forgive
Han, I Was Touch That Day
Thks For U..
And YoUR Birthday Surprise..
If we; Should be getting under
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
{/tagboard --
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Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard; Maybe we're torn apart
Deen Cousin
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Baobao
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ShiQi
QiewRu
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JiaHong
ShiYin
XueHua
HuiLin
YuehLu
SweetEr
SweetEr2
Senior HC
Senior TanKY
Senior TanKY 2
Senior Teo
Kpl Leong
Ldr TanKX
Shi Yin
Jiaxin
Anna
TayYing
ZiYin
TengAnn
KaiSing
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ChungBoh
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Trying too hard; Maybe we're torn apart
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Kpl Leong
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Jiaxin
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{/credits --
designer DancingSheep
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
now playing
empty, click five
She May Never Know
What She Want
But She Has Been Very Clear
What She Did Not Want
She Likes To Do Behind The Scenes Of The Spectators
Coldly
Quietly Watching Everything
In Her Eyes
Everything Expected Of Her
She Did Not Feel That Have Any Strange
If She Acted Strange
That Is Because She Felt Should Be Done
She Is Like A Theater Person
Always Stay Out Of
Please Do Not Blame Her Indifference
This Is The Only Way To Protect Herself
She Looks Like A Hedgehog
Always Put Up Her ‘Quills’
However, The Thorns Will Not Hurt Her Friends
She Just Used To Arm Herselves
She Was Afraid To Love Too Much
She Was Afraid After Enjoying The Happiness Of Love
The Rest Is Just Extra Pain
So When Someone
Had Over-Loving Her, Take Care Of Her
She Will Not Be Happy
Perhapds She Will Escape From It
Because She Does Not Know
How To Return Her Love To Others
If You Get Her Interest & Fall In Love
That Is Because She Already Knew How To Face It
How To Return Her Love
She was always stubbornly believe that she has extraordinary endurance
She always want to be strong
While the others want to be too fragile
She always worried that her behavior
Will make others hurt
But She did not know
She Always Hurt Her own
But she does not know how to show up
Do not think that she was free and easy
Often
She actually does not fit -
She is sensitive than anyone
When She is not fine
She will not let you know
She understood
Even if you know
Is useless
Her heart is to grasp the wind
She longed for a simple, free like the wind
She dreams for peace
But She just could not find the reason for calm
She don't know what is her role
To play in this world
She just kept looking
Seek for her ultimate goal
If she found
She would not hesitate to stop
Give up the mind from wandering
Unfortunately
She will never meet
Never stop pursuing her
No matter how tired her heart
Can not be forced to give up the dream
The only strong point is her dream
Do not let her down
Since she will not forgive
She is in great for perfect
Although she knows
There is no absolute perfect in this world
But she has the absolute perfection of perseverance
If you make her disappointment
She will leave irreversible
Even if her heart bleeding
Even if the pain was to be re-crushed her life
She also never go back
That time
You see her face
Is a step in the right people to pull off
Even if she is still by your side
Her heart had leave apart from you
You can not see her hate
But you will feel "something" more than hate
And also painful cold
She was not so happy as you can see
Same
If you do not see so sad
Only
When her depression
Like to put on a happy mask
When she was happy when
They would not easily let go of her depression
In her world
Candy in the source is not happy
But she did not want the tears that fell in front of others
You see her
Laugh like a child
You sometimes think she is innocent like
Angel walked out of a fairy tale
Her heart
Endless tears forever flow
You see her strong
Only does she try to cover up the weak
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
{/miscellaneous --
My Virtual Barang
now playing
empty, click five
She May Never Know
What She Want
But She Has Been Very Clear
What She Did Not Want
She Likes To Do Behind The Scenes Of The Spectators
Coldly
Quietly Watching Everything
In Her Eyes
Everything Expected Of Her
She Did Not Feel That Have Any Strange
If She Acted Strange
That Is Because She Felt Should Be Done
She Is Like A Theater Person
Always Stay Out Of
Please Do Not Blame Her Indifference
This Is The Only Way To Protect Herself
She Looks Like A Hedgehog
Always Put Up Her ‘Quills’
However, The Thorns Will Not Hurt Her Friends
She Just Used To Arm Herselves
She Was Afraid To Love Too Much
She Was Afraid After Enjoying The Happiness Of Love
The Rest Is Just Extra Pain
So When Someone
Had Over-Loving Her, Take Care Of Her
She Will Not Be Happy
Perhapds She Will Escape From It
Because She Does Not Know
How To Return Her Love To Others
If You Get Her Interest & Fall In Love
That Is Because She Already Knew How To Face It
How To Return Her Love
She was always stubbornly believe that she has extraordinary endurance
She always want to be strong
While the others want to be too fragile
She always worried that her behavior
Will make others hurt
But She did not know
She Always Hurt Her own
But she does not know how to show up
Do not think that she was free and easy
Often
She actually does not fit -
She is sensitive than anyone
When She is not fine
She will not let you know
She understood
Even if you know
Is useless
Her heart is to grasp the wind
She longed for a simple, free like the wind
She dreams for peace
But She just could not find the reason for calm
She don't know what is her role
To play in this world
She just kept looking
Seek for her ultimate goal
If she found
She would not hesitate to stop
Give up the mind from wandering
Unfortunately
She will never meet
Never stop pursuing her
No matter how tired her heart
Can not be forced to give up the dream
The only strong point is her dream
Do not let her down
Since she will not forgive
She is in great for perfect
Although she knows
There is no absolute perfect in this world
But she has the absolute perfection of perseverance
If you make her disappointment
She will leave irreversible
Even if her heart bleeding
Even if the pain was to be re-crushed her life
She also never go back
That time
You see her face
Is a step in the right people to pull off
Even if she is still by your side
Her heart had leave apart from you
You can not see her hate
But you will feel "something" more than hate
And also painful cold
She was not so happy as you can see
Same
If you do not see so sad
Only
When her depression
Like to put on a happy mask
When she was happy when
They would not easily let go of her depression
In her world
Candy in the source is not happy
But she did not want the tears that fell in front of others
You see her
Laugh like a child
You sometimes think she is innocent like
Angel walked out of a fairy tale
Her heart
Endless tears forever flow
You see her strong
Only does she try to cover up the weak