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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
♥ ♥ ♥
HAYA 'HAYASHI / KAREN POH
08.12.1994
Saggitarius
SHE HATEX ANYONE BREAKS HER HEART
LOVES -- Play Any Musical Instrument
Listen Music
Stay Alone
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
{/profile --
ramblings of a teenage girl
HAYA 'HAYASHI / KAREN POH
08.12.1994
Saggitarius
SHE HATEX ANYONE BREAKS HER HEART
LOVES -- Play Any Musical Instrument
Listen Music
Stay Alone
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
{/ --
Monday, 16 March 2009 ( 21:30 )
考试完毕
考试完了哦
终于放下压力了
这次考试
我是第一次三年以来
认真读过书哦
嘻嘻
暂时没有不及格哦
因为还没派完
主科没有四十多分的哦
开心～～～^^
BM - 63
BC - 78
BI - 84
MM - 88
SC - 82
KH - 52
SJ - 52
GEO -
MORAL - 63
SIVIK -
SENI -
这就是我这次的成绩哦～～
开心^^
多一个星期
也就是开学的星期一
九月二十五至三月二十三
就是我们在一起半年了
从一月开始
哭了吵了 整17次
今天就是第17次
想告诉你
如果我们再吵多3次
也就是整20次
我想
我们没有
多余的
值得在一起
虽然我们在一起真的很久了
老实说 和你在一起很快乐
但是 我没有安全感
仿佛是我在呵护你
而不是你呵护我
几乎每一次吵架
都是我在让你
为的是什么
因为我不想再伤害人
不想再想上次一样
因为他 伤了两个男生
利用了他们来忘记他
虽然我知道我爱过那三个男生
但是心里真的像是利用他们
我不要再这样了
不值得
我已经为了他
整个人都不是以前的涵
我最要好的干哥
看到我这样
说我变了好多
一点都不是以前那坚强的涵
那单纯 傻傻 被干哥欺负的涵
那开朗 温柔 不说粗俗话的涵
那勇敢面对事实 不流泪的涵
已经 不见了
因为他 整个人都变了
至今要一年了
都没忘记他
三月二十日
他开始对我很冷淡
到了
三月二十八日
也是我们在一起的两个月又一天
他严重的伤我了
“我不知道为什么我不像以前那样爱你了”
他这么告诉我
而我也第一次割手了
满手都是血
厕所的洗手盆也是
从那一天之后
他再也没有主动找我
电话是 学校也是
每一天都在跟女生玩
而我每天晚上都来找他
为的是想挽回他对我的感觉
直到那一天
五月十九日
我跌伤了脚
你还记得吗
我问你要怎么处理伤口
而你说用清水清洗
涂黄药水就好了
隔天却发炎了
我走不到路
去看医生时
医生说如果我不早点来
可能就会残废了
那一天我真的好难过
想说要不要一次过伤心过
就心血来潮问他了一个问题
你还爱我吗
他的答案很清楚
不爱我了
那一天我彻彻底底
伤心透了
一个人哭得哮喘病发作
第二次哮喘发作
我没有想过
我的努力
我的付出
得到的是这样
我难过 我好难过
直到五月二十五日
我们结束了
两个月的努力没有了
而我也从那一天起
不是以前的涵
而我的手每一天都有一条疤
因为每当晚上
我都会用一部分时间来想你
没人知道我的心
有多脆弱
有多难过
到现在我的左手上的疤
98%都是你的
我的电话收住了
你发给我的千封信息
还有你伤害我的日记
不然我也不会记得
你是哪伤了我
又或者是哪一天对我很好
如果那电话没被偷
至今我都会保留着
还有你送我的情人节礼物
那是我第一份情人节礼物
也有你给我的情人节的卡
我都还留着
因为我舍不得
我舍不得没有你
每天去学校
我都会注意到你
有时注意到太明显了
给弟弟还有姐妹发现
结果被他们说
“你有嘉贤了 别想他了 不然嘉贤知道了会伤心的”
可能很多人认为
我和你分手了
已经对彼此没有感觉了
但我不是
因为你是我最深爱的人
也是
伤我最深的人
这样写着
开始到现在
我已是满脸眼泪
因为我好想你
我真的想抱着你
就算是一次也好
因为我和你在一起到分手
都没有抱过你
至今
我知道自己说什么都没有用
因为你不属于我了
你是你 我是我
我只能默默的祝福你
找个你心目中的她
你难过时 你可以来找我
因为从分手过后
我们就不再说话和电话聊天了
心情不好 你还有一个倾诉者
我的电话
永远为你开着
等着你的来电
我的电话
永远都有你电话记录的存在
我真的希望
你能再把我当成
那开学时的干妹
可以吗
我很想做回你的妹妹
可以像以前一样聊天
可以吗
致：升哥哥
If we; Should be getting under
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
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Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard; Maybe we're torn apart
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Trying too hard; Maybe we're torn apart
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Mine (Old)
ChuaShuFen
LiewHui
XinYu
Baobao
Zoe
ShiQi
QiewRu
Edison
GuoYuan
JiaHong
ShiYin
XueHua
HuiLin
YuehLu
SweetEr
SweetEr2
Senior HC
Senior TanKY
Senior TanKY 2
Senior Teo
Kpl Leong
Ldr TanKX
Shi Yin
Jiaxin
Anna
TayYing
ZiYin
TengAnn
KaiSing
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{/credits --
designer DancingSheep
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
now playing
empty, click five
She May Never Know
What She Want
But She Has Been Very Clear
What She Did Not Want
She Likes To Do Behind The Scenes Of The Spectators
Coldly
Quietly Watching Everything
In Her Eyes
Everything Expected Of Her
She Did Not Feel That Have Any Strange
If She Acted Strange
That Is Because She Felt Should Be Done
She Is Like A Theater Person
Always Stay Out Of
Please Do Not Blame Her Indifference
This Is The Only Way To Protect Herself
She Looks Like A Hedgehog
Always Put Up Her ‘Quills’
However, The Thorns Will Not Hurt Her Friends
She Just Used To Arm Herselves
She Was Afraid To Love Too Much
She Was Afraid After Enjoying The Happiness Of Love
The Rest Is Just Extra Pain
So When Someone
Had Over-Loving Her, Take Care Of Her
She Will Not Be Happy
Perhapds She Will Escape From It
Because She Does Not Know
How To Return Her Love To Others
If You Get Her Interest & Fall In Love
That Is Because She Already Knew How To Face It
How To Return Her Love
She was always stubbornly believe that she has extraordinary endurance
She always want to be strong
While the others want to be too fragile
She always worried that her behavior
Will make others hurt
But She did not know
She Always Hurt Her own
But she does not know how to show up
Do not think that she was free and easy
Often
She actually does not fit -
She is sensitive than anyone
When She is not fine
She will not let you know
She understood
Even if you know
Is useless
Her heart is to grasp the wind
She longed for a simple, free like the wind
She dreams for peace
But She just could not find the reason for calm
She don't know what is her role
To play in this world
She just kept looking
Seek for her ultimate goal
If she found
She would not hesitate to stop
Give up the mind from wandering
Unfortunately
She will never meet
Never stop pursuing her
No matter how tired her heart
Can not be forced to give up the dream
The only strong point is her dream
Do not let her down
Since she will not forgive
She is in great for perfect
Although she knows
There is no absolute perfect in this world
But she has the absolute perfection of perseverance
If you make her disappointment
She will leave irreversible
Even if her heart bleeding
Even if the pain was to be re-crushed her life
She also never go back
That time
You see her face
Is a step in the right people to pull off
Even if she is still by your side
Her heart had leave apart from you
You can not see her hate
But you will feel "something" more than hate
And also painful cold
She was not so happy as you can see
Same
If you do not see so sad
Only
When her depression
Like to put on a happy mask
When she was happy when
They would not easily let go of her depression
In her world
Candy in the source is not happy
But she did not want the tears that fell in front of others
You see her
Laugh like a child
You sometimes think she is innocent like
Angel walked out of a fairy tale
Her heart
Endless tears forever flow
You see her strong
Only does she try to cover up the weak
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
{/miscellaneous --
My Virtual Barang
now playing
empty, click five
She May Never Know
What She Want
But She Has Been Very Clear
What She Did Not Want
She Likes To Do Behind The Scenes Of The Spectators
Coldly
Quietly Watching Everything
In Her Eyes
Everything Expected Of Her
She Did Not Feel That Have Any Strange
If She Acted Strange
That Is Because She Felt Should Be Done
She Is Like A Theater Person
Always Stay Out Of
Please Do Not Blame Her Indifference
This Is The Only Way To Protect Herself
She Looks Like A Hedgehog
Always Put Up Her ‘Quills’
However, The Thorns Will Not Hurt Her Friends
She Just Used To Arm Herselves
She Was Afraid To Love Too Much
She Was Afraid After Enjoying The Happiness Of Love
The Rest Is Just Extra Pain
So When Someone
Had Over-Loving Her, Take Care Of Her
She Will Not Be Happy
Perhapds She Will Escape From It
Because She Does Not Know
How To Return Her Love To Others
If You Get Her Interest & Fall In Love
That Is Because She Already Knew How To Face It
How To Return Her Love
She was always stubbornly believe that she has extraordinary endurance
She always want to be strong
While the others want to be too fragile
She always worried that her behavior
Will make others hurt
But She did not know
She Always Hurt Her own
But she does not know how to show up
Do not think that she was free and easy
Often
She actually does not fit -
She is sensitive than anyone
When She is not fine
She will not let you know
She understood
Even if you know
Is useless
Her heart is to grasp the wind
She longed for a simple, free like the wind
She dreams for peace
But She just could not find the reason for calm
She don't know what is her role
To play in this world
She just kept looking
Seek for her ultimate goal
If she found
She would not hesitate to stop
Give up the mind from wandering
Unfortunately
She will never meet
Never stop pursuing her
No matter how tired her heart
Can not be forced to give up the dream
The only strong point is her dream
Do not let her down
Since she will not forgive
She is in great for perfect
Although she knows
There is no absolute perfect in this world
But she has the absolute perfection of perseverance
If you make her disappointment
She will leave irreversible
Even if her heart bleeding
Even if the pain was to be re-crushed her life
She also never go back
That time
You see her face
Is a step in the right people to pull off
Even if she is still by your side
Her heart had leave apart from you
You can not see her hate
But you will feel "something" more than hate
And also painful cold
She was not so happy as you can see
Same
If you do not see so sad
Only
When her depression
Like to put on a happy mask
When she was happy when
They would not easily let go of her depression
In her world
Candy in the source is not happy
But she did not want the tears that fell in front of others
You see her
Laugh like a child
You sometimes think she is innocent like
Angel walked out of a fairy tale
Her heart
Endless tears forever flow
You see her strong
Only does she try to cover up the weak